Day 2: I'm No Laura Stroud

So, let's get the white elephant out of the room. Or at least my room. 

I cracked. 

Hey hey, it isn't at bad as it seems though. At least for me. Soooo, where to start? I was hungry. No let's rephrase that, I was been starved by a skinny Tinker Bell Nazi. That's too harsh, Tracy hates to be referred to as Tinker Bell. Well you know what, I hate starving. 

It's a heretic problem. The women in my family are well, brats, when, hungry. Seriously, I wouldn't put it past my brothers in law, or dad, to secretly carry around snacks for their sweet wives. 

At least we are aware of it. I texted my friend about how I was just not happy. Zero happiness. 

Kindly she tried to motivate me. "You obviously weren't happy before you started. Or you wouldn't have done this." 

Maybe. 

But, I was happier. Oh rather, I was less crabby. Which, makes me more happier. Right? Right?

Well I got into a whole lot of self loathing. "I'm a size stinkin' zero, why should I be starved?" "I lost four pounds over Christmas break, I was happy doing it in moderation then." I, I, I- eh. As we all know, a size doesn't equate to how one feels. I'm petite, but doesn't mean I'm skinny. Which is more than alright. I'm in constant awe of those women that are completely comfortable in their healthy, but differing bodies. 

But I want skinny, or my version of such. Which, happens to be quite in line with Tracy Anderson's. Hey, funny that right. Yes, no question mark there. Keep rhetorical, rhetorical.  

Soooo, back to the starving. Starving, not going to cut it for me. Yes, I do need to be a bit uncomfortable, relearn the feeling of being unstuffed. Completely agree with Tracy on that. But, there is a limit, for me, and it takes time, again, for me. 

I give all my respect to those that are doing it 30 days by the book. You girls, and guys, are phenomenal. Inspiring. Rock stars. 

For me, it's going to take time. Maybe after this round, I will be able to do it to a T in the future. I will strive for that.

The plan now:

Follow the menu. 

If hungry, eat more, from the menu. 

If, needed, one serving of bread/brown rice, is allowed, each day, for energy and hunger.

Heavy on the "ifs" here. Just because I can, doesn't mean I should. Just giving myself a plan that I can work with. Do. 

So every ten days I will post my progress stats. Let this cyber world know my inches and all that. They are not going to be as staggering as others we have seen, but I still hope for a decline. Thus far, one pound down.

Maybe this will help out anyone else who is in a similar boat. Give those at least some information about how it worked out.  

Until tomorrow! Which by the way, I'm so excited for that omelet. I know Silje said she hated it, but I love omelets. Kinda been waiting, my "whole" two days for this one. 

Oh  workout and what I actually ate today. Silly me. 

Mat workout: 35 reps, for legs and "thass", abs 50 reps, arms 35 reps. Felt yesterdays workout, but nothing too much. Cardio 20 minutes. I don't want to talk about it. Plus, I think I have my problem solved with that. Or so I hope. . . .

And here is a breakdown of the food today: 

Breakfast: not breakfast like, but still yummy. I opted out of the two, red lettuce leaves, as on of my very few substitutions. I wasn't going to buy a thing of lettuce to use two leaves. Nope. I used my arugula instead. Shoot me. 

Lunch: Thanks to Summer, I halved the dressing. The recipes calls for way too much dressing. Even after halving it, I could've fourthed it, or really eighted it. Other than that, it was good. So happy it had an egg in it. I love my eggs. I think I actually jumped into the air when I noticed it called for a hard boiled egg. Thanks Tracy!

Snack: I don't do soy. They say I'm allergic. Though I'm not sure I believe them, I try to avoid it as possible. So, I had the mint strawberry salad. Kind as a default, since it was something I've made on the menu before. After that, I was still hungry, so I made the choco chestnut pudding too, halved. Gasp, a lot of food!  I was happy to not be shaky starving. 

I don't even feel bad about it. 

Dinner: yum yum yum! Holy cow, the raisins in that dish made the meal. It was just perfect. I also love wilted kale and spinach, so another win. And it had chestnuts. Never had chestnuts before BC, and I'm kinda lovin' them. No I really am lovin' them. 

And then my supplemented-after-dinner-snack: a bagel. Lightly toasted, with a bit of honey on top. Mmm. Nuff said.

The server is rejecting my pictures at the moment. I'll try again later.



Keep up the great work for all of you tracying!!